F.A.M.I.L.Y

FAMILY means father and mother, I love you. I came from a non-perfect family. My dad left us; my mom, my brother and I. (I dunno why I got the guts to talk about my dad). I'd stayed with my grandparents when I was around 4 to 5 years old. So I'd assumed my dad left us 17 years ago. I stayed with my grandparents until I was primary 3. My mom and brother were in Bintulu at that time. I don't know why I stayed with my grandparents in Kuching, but not with my mom. So, every school holiday, I went to Bintulu to visit my mom 

For eight years I stayed in Kuching, I seldom meet my dad even though he was in Kuching too with my stepmother and step-siblings. I don't know why. Maybe he was busy with his work or he forgot that he had a daughter named Adeline. 

But, I'm still glad that I can still hear his voice. Until....

I moved to Bintulu when I was primary four. I was so surprised and happy to see him at my primary school for Taekwando competition. (he teaches taekwando, and he is a master). I hoped he could see me. Well, I think he saw me, but he couldn't recognize me. My heart broke. 

After so long I'd never meet him until I was 15 years old, My grandpa brought my brother and I to his house in Kuching. He hugged me. I felt like to cry at that time, but I hold back my tears. That is the last time I'd met him. Now, I'm 21 years old. No meet, no calls. Either he's already dead nor alive, I don't know.

His promises that made for me, never ever fulfilled it. I still can remember, when I was still small, he had promised me to buy a toy cooking set. I've waited, but... no. When I was in Form 5, he had promised to support my further studies, but... no.

I could never have the chance to have the father-daughter talks. I could never have the chance to joke with my dad. I could never have the chance to travel with both of my parent. I could never have the chance to talk about my dad. I could never have the chance being pampered by my dad. I could never have the chance to tell my dad that I'm married and he had a grandson. (I'm sure he'll gets heart attack when he knows. LOL!)

Daddy, sometimes I could just miss you so so much. I'm so envy of my step-siblings because they could have a perfect family. Why do you left us? Anyway, I miss you. I love you.